I make an effort to review the quality of my life and its direction when I get the chance. I do this by comparing where I was a year ago to where I am now. I ask myself these questions; What was I doing last year at this time? Am I happier than I was a year ago? Did I reach the goals I set for myself? What did I want last year at this time? Do I still want it? Do I have it?
In July of 2011, I knew that I wanted to be a screenwriter. I didn’t know how to do it. I didn’t know how I could accomplish it. I didn’t think that completing college was going to help me towards that goal. I wanted to leave college. I didn’t like the debt that I was getting into. I felt like I was being scammed. Outrageously priced books, mandatory waste of time classes, and other issues made me really regret going to college at all. My college wasn’t a bad one, but I didn’t think it was worth the price I was paying. Last year at this time, I wished I had never gone to college. I wanted to go back to when I hadn’t made the choice. I felt like college was going to keep me from doing what I really wnated to do.
Now, I’m still in college. I’ve stopped caring about my grades completely. (Yet they are at the same level they’ve always been) I just write whatever I want on my papers and tests. I keep myself entertained by seeing what I can get away with. I try to have as much fun as possible in my life at every second. I’ve stopped stressing about the debt I have to pay off. I still don’t know how I’m going to become a screenwriter, but I’ve been reading about the lives that these people lead. I know now more than ever that it is what I want to do.
As much as I hate to say it, I have a more positive outlook on life now. I don’t know what happened over the past year to cause this, but I am happier.